I actually didn’t want to be a girl. It has taken me a long time to accept my femininity. I wanted to be a boy when I was younger and called myself Christopher. And although by the age of nine I finally grew my hair out and started wearing skirts, I was still questioning and resistant.
Maybe writing is like playing the piano. You can’t expect the very best piece to come out immediately. It takes dedication to write daily morning pages. Only playing it over and over again, changing the chords and tempo, tweaking the refrain until you find the right chords and rhythm.